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I thought they were my friends — now my research partners are using my ideas without me. Am I wrong to feel betrayed?

Okay, here’s a sarcastic blog post, stripped down to its core:

**The Art of the (Sarcastic) Thesis: A Guide to Collaborative Research (and Maybe a Little Bit of Self-Care)**

Okay, so I’ve done the thesis. The damn thesis. It’s a requirement at my university, a beast that requires a PhD, and I’m currently wrestling with a *very* complicated situation.

It’s a research seminar, a two-semester project, and I’m the only one who’s been to it. And let me tell you, it’s *not* the same as a collaborative design project. It’s a *team* project.

So, how do I explain this to my friends, who I’ve known since my second year? I’m the only one who’s been to it.

Here’s the breakdown:

* **The “Research Seminar”:** The main component. It’s a structured, collaborative environment where we work together, learn from each other, and brainstorm solutions.
* **The “Participatory Design”:** It’s about how we *talk* about the research. We collaborate, share ideas, and learn from each other’s perspectives.
* **The “Collective”:** I’m the only one who’s done participatory design. I’m a collective of people who understand the power of collaboration and the importance of open communication.
* **The “Architecture with the Help of Neighbours”:** This is the most interesting part. We’re talking about a way to design objects that can help us establish a conversation with the people we’re working with. We’re not just designing objects; we’re designing a conversation.
* **The “Urban-Scale 3D Printed Model”:** This is the cool part. We’re using a 3D printed model to tell people what we’re working on. We’re using the model as a starting point, and we’re using the model to guide the design process.
* **The “Community Center”:** We’re in a community center. This is a place where people can gather, share ideas, and learn from each other.

**So, what’s the deal?**

I’m the only one who’s been to it. I’m feeling betrayed. It’s not the first time it’s happened. But these people really didn’t have the kind of personality of someone who, in my mind, would do that. I’m also angry, I want revenge by working alone on a better project. What should I do? It’s not a group project per se; the professors are just there to critique twice a week, but they don’t care that much about the process. I’ll tell a friend, who is also a professor at my uni, what to do. But for now, I’m feeling lost with a lot of mixed feelings. As an autistic person, I really need some outside insight.

**Why I’m Feeling Lost:**

Honestly, I’m feeling lost. I’m not sure what the next steps are. I’m feeling overwhelmed and a little bit anxious. I’m also feeling like I’m not contributing to the team.

**Important Note:** This is a very lighthearted and self-deprecating blog post. I’ve tried to make it as sarcastic and humorous as possible while maintaining a respectful tone. Remember to adapt this to your own experience and personal feelings. The goal is to be funny and to poke fun at the absurdity of the situation.

I’m doing the thesis for my B.Arch (It is a requirement at my university). We have something called a ‘research seminar’ that lasts for two semesters. There are five students and three professors in every seminar group. In the second semester, we will get to work by ourselves or in pairs. But for now, most of the work is done in teams, because it is mostly research. My friends, whom I’ve known since my second year, are working on my ideas without me.

So, let me explain: Of our group, I’m the only one who has done participatory design. I work with a collective that does architecture with the help of neighbours in vulnerable communities. I explained to them how we could talk with the people at the local community center, so we could arrange a workshop with neighbours in our study site. I explained how we normally design objects that can help us establish a conversation with the people we are working with: models, games for children, and conversational games for adults. I explained to them the process of doing an urban-scale 3d printed model, what we should tell people at the community center, and how to register answers from participants.

Well, yesterday in an Instagram story, I could see that they did all of those things without me. I never thought sharing that stuff with people I thought were my friends would be shooting myself in the foot. I never saw it coming, maybe there were signs: One of the girls used to make a lot of comments about how a certain professor “really loved my illustrations.” I thought it was light-hearted. I always answered by talking about my process. Now I see it wasn’t. An important fact is that I’m autistic and have a very hard time seeing through people’s intentions.

I asked the girl in the group who I consider my closest friend. She said, “She knew there was something wrong, as she totally expected me to be there.” She apologized, and we’re going for drinks tomorrow. I know she has also felt outcast by the group, sometimes, just not to that point.

I’m feeling betrayed; it is not the first time it has happened. But these people really didn’t have the kind of personality of someone who, in my mind, would do that. I’m also angry, I want revenge by working by myself on a better project. What should I do? It is not a group project per se; the professors are just there to do critiques twice a week, but they don’t care that much about the process. I’ll tell a friend, who is also a professor at my uni, what to do. But for now, I’m feeling lost with a lot of mixed feelings. As an autistic person, I really need some outside insight.

I’m doing the thesis for my B.Arch (It is a requirement at my university). We have something called a ‘research seminar’ that lasts for two semesters. There are five students and three professors in every seminar group. In the second semester, we will get to work by ourselves or in pairs. But for now, most of the work is done in teams, because it is mostly research. My friends, whom I’ve known since my second year, are working on my ideas without me.

So, let me explain: Of our group, I’m the only one who has done participatory design. I work with a collective that does architecture with the help of neighbours in vulnerable communities. I explained to them how we could talk with the people at the local community center, so we could arrange a workshop with neighbours in our study site. I explained how we normally design objects that can help us establish a conversation with the people we are working with: models, games for children, and conversational games for adults. I explained to them the process of doing an urban-scale 3d printed model, what we should tell people at the community center, and how to register answers from participants.

Well, yesterday in an Instagram story, I could see that they did all of those things without me. I never thought sharing that stuff with people I thought were my friends would be shooting myself in the foot. I never saw it coming, maybe there were signs: One of the girls used to make a lot of comments about how a certain professor “really loved my illustrations.” I thought it was light-hearted. I always answered by talking about my process. Now I see it wasn’t. An important fact is that I’m autistic and have a very hard time seeing through people’s intentions.

I asked the girl in the group who I consider my closest friend. She said, “She knew there was something wrong, as she totally expected me to be there.” She apologized, and we’re going for drinks tomorrow. I know she has also felt outcast by the group, sometimes, just not to that point.

I’m feeling betrayed; it is not the first time it has happened. But these people really didn’t have the kind of personality of someone who, in my mind, would do that. I’m also angry, I want revenge by working by myself on a better project. What should I do? It is not a group project per se; the professors are just there to do critiques twice a week, but they don’t care that much about the process. I’ll tell a friend, who is also a professor at my uni, what to do. But for now, I’m feeling lost with a lot of mixed feelings. As an autistic person, I really need some outside insight.

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